ok, so it’s been a little while..

WARNING - this is not written very well. please forgive the choppy flow and lack of grammatical symmetry.

i think it stemmed from a fear of rejection. like if i confessed my ignorance on certain subjects, everyone would come to the realization that i was an imposter. like if i responded with meekness that it would mean that i instantly became invisible and my importance would disappear with me.

here is my confession, in no particular order:

Wild at Heart - I have never read this book. Well.. a chapter. But somehow, I have formed an opinion that believes that this book is wrong, patronizing, and emasculating to men like me. What in the world. The worst thing about this is that if I would have read the truths in this book and applied them 4 or 5 months ago, my girlfriend and I would still be together right now. This season is the price of my stubbornness.

Redeeming Love/Christian romance novels - I have absolutely no idea how i feel about this subject, but any time Becky has brought it up to me, i’ve reacted as if they were the end of civilization as we know it. I’m sorry for my stubbornness, and I’m genuinely happy you have found something you enjoy so much.

clothing - Don’t get me wrong, I love clothes, I know clothes, but so many times I find myself trying to mend the gap between what I know and what I think I should know, if that makes any sense..

clothing brands - and while we’re on it, I’ve been a real brand snob. Places like Old Navy and American Eagle have been blacklisted by me for the stated reason that I, “don’t like their fits, they are too generic and don’t fit anybody the right way.” And although this is true in some cases, the main reason for my objection has been because it makes me feel like I know what I’m talking about when I can reject one brand and accept another, not to mention the fact that I love it when i name a brand of which you haven’t heard. I will say this: IF THE JEAN FITS, WEAR IT!

music/bands- Again, this is something that I have knowledge about, but why is it that when I come across a question to which I do not know the answer, I can’t just say, “I don’t know, do you?” wouldn’t that better facilitate me for the next time that question comes up?

Kim Walker - For some reason, whether it be a personal preference or an adamant attempt to oppose popular opinion, I have never appreciated Kim Walker. I have always used the excuse that she can’t bve anointed because she only sings other people’s songs. What in the world?! That doesn’t even make sense! Maybe she’s anointed to be the mouthpiece of God while someone else is anointed to be the hand of God.. Why is that so hard to believe? I’ve been a stubborn person that has discounted the anointing of God. Please forgive me.

i can’t think of anything else right now, but keep your eyes on this post, cause I’m sure they will come to me..

from this point forward, i give you, the humble reader, the right to confront me on this issue. if you suspect that i am doing this, whether it be on these subjects or others, i don’t want you to hesitate in calling me out on it. and i will also promise to call myself on it, right in midsentence or wherever i catch myself doing it, and apologize.

man this is horrible writing.. oh well, this needs to be communicated.